Well, I decided that I need to be more proactive in finding a church back home since that's where I'm headed for summer.. but, I just don't know where to look! I've grown so deeply attached to my church here, how am I supposed to find another church home? I'm so critical about the churches I attend because I have a desperation to learn.. always. I can't be in a place that will inhibit (did I spell that right?) growth or a church with bad theology! But learning in and of itself is not enough. The whole point of attending a church is to be a part of the body of believers. But you can't really google that... haha.. so, I'm trying to get a feel for the theologies of the churches around me. Putting this into practice is just as important, so I'm trying to figure out how these churches live out their faith through freakin websites. This is terrible! There must be an easier way to do this... All of my friends who attend churches back home go to like... mega churches where worship is only music and it is turned into a concert. Lets pump up the bass and make you think you're feeling the Holy Spirit.... ughhh no thanks. And I'm not a fan of pastors who preach and do not teach. I need a teacher. I need a teacher who teaches the Word of God and not a pastor who has some sort of righteous anger about something and finds some scripture to back up his/her argument and decides that these feelings were "Divine Revelations from God."
God... please help me. I know I shouldn't be so critical. I know that we are all so imperfect and these generalized pastors are probably being as faithful as they know to be. I know that they are probably doing amazing loving things in their churches and surrounding communities. But please.. .help me find a place where I will grow. Teach me Lord.. and humble me. Clearly, I need it.
